Be Still

I will be still in my soul before the Lord.

I am anxious for so many things. There are so many things I worry about. My heart is in turmoil. It wants to hide away from everything. I am afraid.

Tomorrow has enough worries of its own. Do not be anxious about what you will eat or drink or what you will wear. Consider the lilies.

What of my relationships? What about the people I love? Will you provide for them too? Or will you abandon us to find our own way in an empty and meaningless world?

I want to see and taste truth, reality, you in every breath of life. I want to be full of you.

Blessed is the one who hungers and thirsts for righteousness, for they will be filled.

But is that now or only later? Must I hate myself forever? Must I live in fear of meaninglessness forever?

You have been given my Holy Spirit. Your light can never be swallowed. What my Father has given me, no one can snatch out of my hand.

But do you love me?

I died so that you could live free without fear. Live without fear. You are safe.

Really safe?

Safe from death of any kind. I will come for you.

And until then?

Love me and love others. Live.